Why is it that is seems like as soon as you think you have a few minutes for a shower (meaning that the baby is finally sleeping), you barely get out of the shower and the baby is crying again? Today I put Bria down for a nap, and I desperately needed a shower (didn't get to yesterday). She hardly slept, and I came out of the shower to hear her crying! Then, the next time she fell asleep, I had barely enough time to finish washing the dishes!
I don't know about you, but I used to be a very relaxed person. I would get up at least an hour before I had to go anywhere. I had lots of time to make sure that I was ready to go, and not late for anything! So long to those care free days! My neck is always so tense now that I get nasty headaches some days. I really need to loosen up, and not just physically. I tend to take things way too seriously these days.
I think I know why... I haven't been spending time with God like I need to. I can totally tell the difference in myself when I take some time out of my day to read my Bible, talk to God, sing a praise song, or just sit back and thank God for the good things in my life.
Yesterday I was reading Mel's blog, and I just really knew what she meant. She was saying how she felt like a failure as a mom, wife, and a Christian. It's so easy for me to head down that road. I've come to realize that all of these things take hard work and commitment, something that I'm struggling to make a reality in my own life.
I was also thinking yesterday that I need to have more of a routine to my day. Sometimes I feel like I don't take enough time for my kids, and especially for Keith. I have a hard time relaxing and not worrying about things that need to get done. Yup, I can be one of those people who sits and worries, without getting up to do something about it! So, if I had some sort of a schedule, I might be able to get more done, and then I could relax with my family.
I hope that this made sense, and didn't sound like a bunch of rambling! I hope to post some more pictures in the next few days.