Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Kindness that made me cry

Today started out OK, but then just got worse. Yesterday I would have told you that I was doing fine, just needed some time to heal. Today has been a roller coaster, and everything seems to come out as anger. Ugh. What can I do?

This afternoon I got an email from a company saying they were sending me the Healing Hearts Baby Loss kit from Earth Mama Angel Baby FOR FREE! I had emailed the other day, asking where I could purchase it in Canada, and they said no one had it right now, but they would ship it out to their Canadian distributor immediately. The Canadian distributor emailed me today to say that it was a gift, no charge. I cried. I sooo appreciate their kindness.

9 comments:

Laura said...

that's so sweet. I hope it brings you some comfort. Give yourself time to grieve....however that may be. Some of the best advice I got when Mya died was from my mom. She said "whatever you're feeling, it's okay. If you are numb, that's okay. If you're angry, that's okay. If you're happy, that's okay." Of course there comes a time that you have to stop letting yourself be angry but it's a normal part of grief. Just let yourself feel what you feel.

amy said...

That is so neat. I'm so sorry for your loss, I cannot imagine what you're going through, and am keeping you in my prayers. I think that this is one of those ways that God answers those unsaid prayers.

amy said...

By unsaid, I mean the ones where you just cry out, when there are just no words. Rest in Him.

Pam Koop said...

Stacey, I am so sorry...I understand since we dealt with 2 miscarriages before this baby on the way...it is a process that takes time and allow yourself to hurt, be angry, cry but make sure you also remember the precious moments along the way (like what that company is sending you, etc) and appreciate TODAY...that is what I found to be so crucial! We have no idea what tomorrow holds but we can treasure today. May God be your strength through this time!

Anonymous said...

Stacey-- I am so sorry. There are many stages of grief. Feeling okay one moment or day and totally differently the next moment or the next day is totally 'normal' after the loss you've just experienced. There is denial, fear, anger, blame (self-blame as in 'if only I hadn't said/done.... but it's not your fault!), isolation, running away(from situations that remind us of those feelings of loss/pain), depression and lastly, hope based on reality. It's possible to experience only some of them or all of them, not usually in a certain order or period of time. Sometimes you can have rough days where many of them come into play. Little things can bring out these emotions.

In addition to the loss, you are still going through the physical hormone drops after losing a pregnancy. Those fast drops, in addition to the emotional aspect of loss, in addition to parenting preschoolers and toddlers makes for an emotional time.

Hang in there. HOw great that the company is sending the kit. Very kind, but then, so are you.

Something that I did to help de-stress was to get a massage every two weeks. If Keith has Blue Cross coverage, up to 80 percent of it might be refunded to you. Just an idea. Getting out each day also helped, although with this cold weather right now, it's hard to get out. Grief is hard. I hope that you have help in getting alone time that you need right now.

Marilyn

Chelsea said...

Loosing a child is one of my largest fears and as Darren and I plan on more children the fear creeps into the back of my mind. All I can do is trust in Gods grace and mercy. That whatever happens I know it is his good will be done even if we don't think it is so good at the time. we love you and are praying that God give you and your family stangth and peace.
-Chelsea, Darren, and Adalia.

Rhonda said...

Stacey, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I am praying for you and feeling with you. I had two miscarriages between Stacey and Alyssa. It hurt to lose those babies. If I can help you in any way please let me know.

Shanilie said...

God's power sure was shining through then. That is wonderful. They were very generous, and at a time you needed it. Thinking of you often.

BundlebooMaMa said...

awww hon, I am sorry to hear about that..I've been a bit out of the loop...Im glad that you are finding some helpful support.