profoundly deaf. The diagnosis was a long time in coming and yet, hard to take. I knew she was hard of hearing, but I really didn't think it was that bad.
I love Holland with a crazy, fierce, love. I want to protect her and keep her safe. I don't want her life to be a struggle. I want, more than anything, to be able to tell her I love her and have her understand. I want to be able to tell her about Jesus and how much He loves her. She is almost 2 and has never heard a word.
I think of how she has such an amazing little personality, full of expression and a bit of a stubborn streak. I know those things will serve her well. She is going to live a great life. I just hate that we have missed out on so much time.
I also think of what lies ahead. All the appointments, therapy, possible surgery, tests, etc. So much stress on such a little person.
God is faithful. He is gracious. He gives strength. He has a plan. I just have to follow and trust.